alone in my bathroom,
cumming into the toilet an hour before the ball drops,
i wipe the tip of my dick off with a piece of toilet paper,
and flush after i am finished.
i fill up the bath tub,
smoke a g-bong,
remove my tongue by pulling it
out of my mouth with my fingers,
and hang it on the towel rack next to the tub
just like an old lady taking out her dentures
before bed.
i won't need it tonight.
there is no one to talk to.
there is no one to kiss.
there is no one to sleepover, and play video games with.
tonight:
people are busy.
people are doing things.
going out to parties,
going out to bars,
spending time with family/friends/lovers,
people are grown up.
getting drunk,
chewing gum,
sucking on breath mints,
counting,
making out with strangers,
making out with boy/girlfriends,
dancing,
screaming,
peeing their pants,
laughing,
grinding,
snuggling,
vomiting,
bonding,
confident,
brave,
hopeful,
having fun.
i shut my cell phone off.
i'm taking a bath,
and watching cartoons on my laptop.
bringing in the new year nude.
i will put my tongue back into place tomorrow.
submerged under the water,
my body looks like a sunken battle ship
covered in coral
resting in the sand on the sea floor.
earlier tonight,
when i was sitting on the toilet,
i used my imagination to get off
instead of looking at porn.